America's Got Talent

As some know, I recently went on the show in the subject line and that I was recently on television.  I really don't feel I owe anyone an explanation but I'd still like to reflect on things.

I went in front of David Hasselhoff, Sharon Osbourne, and Piers Morgan.  I wanted to do Chris Isaak's WICKED GAME which I did in the preliminary rounds but it did not get approved for copyright purposes.  I had been playing around with the song I CAN'T MAKE YOU LOVE ME from Bonnie Raitt and it seemed pretty good so I went with that one. 

When I was working on it backstage it sounded pretty good and people were pretty complimentary when they heard me backstage, then the big moment came where I went out in front of the judges.  When I got out there it was a whole different place.  I recited my name, where I'm from and so on so then I got on to the act and it just was not my brightest moment.  I did what I thought I could never do, I choked on stage.  As soon as I started, that crowd booed the hell out of me and Hasselhoff and Sharon immediately buzzed me but I got through it because Piers did not buzz me.

After that David had some less than amusing comments that we will not get into.  Sharon was more constructive and Piers was actually rather complimentary which you will not know from watching that episode on tv where he said "Not in a million light years".  He was actually pretty nice to me and that raised me up a little bit.

About two weeks ago I'm watching the Myspace edition and I really did not expect to get on tv but boy was I wrong.  I was doing something on the computer and next thing I know I hear an all-too familiar voice and the name "Shaun Berkey" who was from Muncie, Indiana and I about flipped out.  They only showed about 20-30 seconds of it which was great but it was not me at my best.  The song sounded good backstage, but then I got on-stage and for the first time the nerves got the best of me.

My friends and family have been very supportive.  Some say I did a good job which that I don't really agree with but I agree though when people say i had the guts to get on that stage.  I'm glad I did this I just wish it would have gone better.  I even got recognized in public by a couple people and pretty much saying it was cool that I got on there. 

You can probably find this on nbc.com, youtube and whatever else has videos.  I'm not asking anyone not to watch it.  I will say that I have not watched the whole thing and do not intend to.  The bloggers on the internet had some pretty interesting things to say but I just laughed that off.  What gets to me the most is that it could have been much better and that I am not that bad.  Granted, I'm probably more of an actor than I am a singer but I definitely could have done better than what I did.

The question people ask is "are you doing it again?" and the answer is that I don't really know.  That was tough to see and to go through.  It also is quite full of exploitation but knowing me I'm sure I will because my mom will try and I'll decide to go with her.  Do I have what it takes to win?  I really doubt it but I know I am better than what people witnessed on television. 

When I look back on things I realize how blessed I am.  I perform all the time on the community theater stage.  They understand what I went through and know my abilities.  I also ring announcer for local wrestling promotions where the wrestlers are very respectful of me.  It is something that no one can really understand until they have done it.  Until you go out in front of about a thousand people and three judges, people just can't understand.  If I decide to do it next year, I will stick to singing since there really is nothing for acting unless you have some comic routine which I don't.  However, my music selection will likely be musical selections and if it goes the same way next year, that will be my last try in the world of AGT.

Check out my movie recommendations if you haven't yet and stay tuned probably on Saturday when I release my blog. 

I want to thank everyone for their support in my experience on that show and for my blog that I work very hard on each week.  It meant a lot to hear people support me for what I felt was quite a debacle but acknowledge that I had the balls to get on that stage and likely I will try again but I'll decide when it is closer to time.